WHY A BLOG?
Her story. Her feelings. Her love for the gospel and passion to share it. This is all too familiar. This IS my story too. And I’m sure it’s not just mine. I will always be thankful to Al Fox Carraway for bringing me back to my blogging story, which really started more as an inspiration.
When I felt I should start a blog, I held back for two years. Fear stopped me. But finally, after many talks with my sisters, and much encouragement from family I just did it (Aug. 2014). It wasn’t until two months later that I actually wrote my first post.
My main inspiration to start a blog stemmed from my love of the gospel of Jesus Christ, and wanting more people to know about it and be happy. That is what brought me so much happiness, ironically, in the time that I was recovering and fighting the worst unhappiness to deal with- depression.
Then, endless possibilities within the blogging industry caught my attention, and I kind of lost this focus. Well, I held on to it but wasn’t really giving my blog the purpose and attention it needed. I also got involved in the fitness industry , and tried to copy what others were doing, of course, using my blog; but it wasn’t me.
At one point, when I was so lost, but doing so much, but not knowing where to go from there, my sister Lily asked me, ” What drives you? What do you love? What is your why?” (At that time we both became health coaches).
I wanted to give her the answer she wanted to hear, the typical answer every coach should say: “Helping people”; but my heart and mind couldn’t help but think there was an inner fire that burned within me more than helping people with just fitness, and that fire was to share the gospel.
I told her the truth. I told her the gospel is my happiness and what drives me and makes me feel like me more than any other thing. There was silence. There was much thinking, reflecting, praying, and scripture study following that conversation.
This conversation happened a year after I started my blog.
CHANGES: I FOUND MYSELF!
It wasn’t until October 2015, that I said things needed to change, when perfectionism, inadequacy, and fear were dominating my feelings.
It was then that I started my morning routine and went back to the basics of the gospel- prayer and scripture study. I also committed to exercising daily, journal, set and write goals, plan my day, meditate, and share again the love of the gospel on social media, and the truth that stemmed from the gospel.
I went ahead and made a couple of blog posts, which all turned into faith posts. I realized that that really was, should be, and is the focus of my blog.
If someone like me, who was so private on social media, went and opened my Instagram and blog to the public it was because it was the inspiration I received from God.
BLOGVOLUTION: MY BLOG FOCUS
My blog is meant for something. I hold on to that.
I know God has a purpose for me. I know my role in sharing the gospel will be magnified if I stay focused on my raw feelings and not trying to copy other blogs.
I know I will have global speaking opportunities. (I secretly dream of it ).
I know I am an influence for good online and to those around me.
In just the past couple of days, I’ve seen this written all over my journals, patriarchal blessing; and it has been confirmed by the Holy Ghost- the Spirit of God.
I commit to re-making my blog to be what it is meant to be.
I DON’T BELIEVE IN COINCIDENCES, I BELIEVE IN GOD
It is no coincidence that right when I needed to know this, and was seeking guidance with my blog, I felt inspired to get this book [More Than Just the Tattooed Mormon] and read it right away.
It is no coincidence that I came across quotes that led me to remember my purpose.
It is no coincidence that the young women lesson I gave at church last Sunday was on knowing who we are- our origin, purpose, and divinity.
It is not a coincidence that when I feel the most down I am always reminded where I need to turn to and how much I love the gospel.
It is not a coincidence that I’ve stuck to a spiritual morning routine that has renewed my mind and soul.
It is not a coincidence that my talks with Devin always lead to this, and he reminds me of this when I forget.
Coincidences are more of God’s tender mercies appearing in our lives at just the right time, in just the right moment.
I recognize God’s hand in my life. He is always there. Even in my darkest of times. And now my life is full of light and happiness because of how strong my darkest of times made me.
I am happier because I know my divinity and God’s plan of happiness for us, and I want to share it with the world.
***Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
***D&C 11:24 Build upon my rock, which is my gospel;
***1 Nephi 7:12 Yea, and how is it that ye have forgotten that the Lord is able to do all things according to his will, for the children of men, if it so be that they exercise faith in him? Wherefore, let us be faithful to him.